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I’m feeling very blah.  Not bad, but not great either.  I hate life and the act of being alive, but am not suicidal.  I think it’s partly my fatigue.  And my frustration over the doctor’s refusal to do the proper tests on my thyroid.  I won’t go into details about which thyroid hormones are which, so I don’t bore those of you who don’t have hypothyroidism.  Let’s just summarize by saying that out of three tests the doctor could be running, he is only going to run one.  He claims that my insurance will only pay for the one, when I know that is not true.

I have also been told that I might have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. If the blood rests that my doctor is actually running come back as normal, he’s pretty much determined that this is something I have.  I am freaking out.  I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!

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